One thing I have always struggled with is being confident in sharing my faith with people. If an opportunity arises where someone asks me about being a Christian I don’t have a problem sharing, although I never feel that I am very eloquent in how I say it. Lately I have found myself in the position to share much more about how I feel about certain issues regarding ministry or about my own struggles as a Christian. The thing is, I’m almost putting myself in those positions. In the past when conversations would be moving in a direction where I’d have to share I’d find an excuse to leave the room, but now I take on the challenge and help steer it towards me needing to share my position.

I am currently enrolled in a writing course which discusses how writing impacts your health (The shortest explanation I can give you). As part of the course requirements I need to write journal entries. I can choose to share whatever I want from my journal but this past week I shared about my anxieties regarding the notion of being a pastor’s wife in the future. I am not taking the course through a Christian university. 90% of my classmates are not Christians which immediately makes me question wether or not to post journal entries regarding my faith. I had other journal entries I could have chosen to share, but I decided to go for it and post about my fears of ministry. I may have only received one post in response from my classmates, but it was a post of encouragement.

I’m amazed by my willingness now to share with others what I used to keep to myself. In the next while I hope to uncover a way to explain my faith a bit more concisely and without stumbling along like I can’t find the words I need to say. Just a short little testimony minus the anxiety.