• I am feeling more nervous, more unprepared, and more at wit’s end with this pregnancy than I have ever been with any of my other children.  (Duh, you’re having twins!)
• I am going through a slump at work, and I think it’s partly because I am distracted by the fact that I can’t conclude a deal on a van for the family.
• My wife is very insightful.  She pointed out to me that the reason I am so focused on vans is because it is the only thing I feel I have any control over right now.  I can’t control the pregnancy, I can’t control the quality of sales opportunity at work, I can’t control my family’s health (largely).  Problem is, I can’t control finding a van either – it is the dealer, the salesperson, the buyer for my car who are in the driver’s seat and I am just waiting… waiting… waiting…
• Feeling Romans 7:19 right now with respect to my kids and my computer.  Guess which one I think is the sin.
• Also feeling Romans 7:19 right now with respect to studying for licensure and facebook.  Guess which one I think is sin.
• I really want to start using my knowledge of the internet to warn people away from Maple Ridge Chrysler, because of the way they have treated us.  I can’t decide if it is revenge or public service that is motivating me though.

Life is quite packed full right now.

Changes at work have left me with a lot less time on my hands during the day.  After work, with Cheryl now showing about 37 weeks in size (though she is just finishing off the 29th of the pregnancy, as you can see to the right), there is a lot more to do around the house.

We’ve got a pile of things to run with right now, and I kind of feel bad that there are some things that are getting left by the wayside though I wish they weren’t.  I think about three different couples that will be moving at the end of the month, and how much I’d like to help but don’t think I will have the time.

Besides the size, there is another reason why Cheryl needs help.   We got word with the last ultrasound appointment that one of the twins isn’t growing as quickly as the doctor would like.  It is getting to the point where questions are being asked about bringing them out early.  Quite early.  Ca. 32 weeks (a regular pregnancy is 40 weeks, for those who might not know).  That’s the beginning of July.

Of course the longer they stay in the better, but if the Drs think they will be healthier by coming out, then that is what will be.  In the meantime, we are trying to do everything we can to make sure they dont’ have to.  Cheryl is on “couchrest” I call it.  She isn’t allowed to move around a lot.  That means I spend a lot of time leading the charge against the household chores when I get home.  My housework platoon is a little distracible, so sometimes the work doesn’t go as smoothly as I would like.

Not much to do with the church plant, I know.  I’ll do another post here to talk more about that.

Today I decided to start looking at the cities we are going to be visiting in March. Last year, I contacted Medicine Hat and told them how I liked their online brochure and would like a hard copy of it. They sent me a huge packet containing more than just the brochure that I requested. It was an overwhelming packet containing their leisure guide, maps, tourism info, their census, utilities info…. the list goes on.

First on my list today was Lethbridge. They have a site called Choose Lethbridge. So much of the information on the site was spread out and I am one of those people that likes information in a compiled form, such as a brochure where it is all neatly organized. They were good enough to put their email address on their site so I dropped them (The Department of Economic Development) a little note asking if they had the information in a pdf or hard copy. Within an hour I had a reply saying that they were rewriting the information but yes they had it in a pdf which they provided the link for and could give me a hard copy if I would like. So, I wrote back and stated I would love to get a hard copy and there are other families who may consider moving with us and I would appreciate if they could let us know when the revised edition is out. I received a reply that they will send out the material today and will send several copies rather than just one. Very nice!

Now I am on to checking out the other cities on our list to see what information I can dig up and what resources I might be able to have sent my way. It would be nice to be armed with as much information as possible prior to our scouting trip in March.

I left work, knowing that my wife was going for an ultrasound. An unexpected pregnancy was suspected by the midwives as being “molar” which means it could just be a bunch of undifferentiated cells reproducing a baby-like rates. They’re bad because they can be cancerous. Think D&C, then chemotherapy, and you get the state of mind my wife and I were in.

At the same time, just before I left, the biggest single sale I have ever made at work called… to cancel. He said it was because his car had been totalled by a garage who was supposed to repair it. I actually believe him, as his was the most airtight sale I have ever made – he even had his wife approve the sale with him explaining it to her before we closed it. Anyway, he expects to have his finances re-sorted in a month or so and expects to do it then.

Two punches.

I went home with a pretty heavy heart. I wait for my wife to come home from the ultrasound. She says they had to check twice – there was something odd.

But they figured out what it was.

Twins.

I could be upset, shocked, unnerved, fearful, desperate, any number of things right now. We hadn’t closed the door to another child, but we didn’t expect two at once! I certainly have no idea how in the biggest recession to hit real estate since 1929, I am going to make ends meet with my job, which sells software to realtors. But God’s got to have a plan, because I sure don’t. And I am so curious to see what it is.

(Crossposted to Confessions of a Shiftless Mind)